self conflict haha!

yay, Captivate JB called. Yes, i am bored to the extend that i need to find part time job. since money is never enough and i felt horrible eating, sleeping and watching movie, i dialed D number. is it real that alot of ppl wn this kind of 'relaxing' days? hm...

Yiing wake up! u shud b studyin! exam is jz 2 weeks later.
exam? oh, exam.
For God's sake, your result dropped last sem due to part time working!
nah, it's cuz im lazy n i never reli like BM subjs.
You are a teacher-to-be in less than a year, how can you be lazy?
Why can't I? Teacher is jz normal occupation.
Aha, coming from you who hv passion for teaching?
Yes, i do love teaching. but argh...one year, why is this one year so long?

Eeek..self-questioning-and-answering. This is the effect of staying too long in the room.Hm, calm down, take a deep breath. Reflect.

Why am I here?
Final year, study, graduate on time.

Why do I want to be here?
Cuz teaching will be my profession, in order word, for survival.

Can you cope with your studies if you work?
I hope so, in fact, i manage my time better when i work. cuz i know i hv to study, n working allows me to meet new friends n get out of these 4 walls.

What about church? You willing to give up sunday mass for RM100?
I will attend church, work starts at 12 noon. Yes, i might miss the fellowship..hm..

Do you really need the money?
No. i'm jz bored of staying in.

You can revise!
But no one is..lame excuses i know.

Ahem, pardon my angel-devil thoughts. Just feel like typing out what's on my mind. then when i look back one day when im bored or sad, i might laugh over it. that time, i might hv bigger problems and get sick of working, n i'll look back and ponder, why the **** do i wan to work when i get to REST? (consequences of overdosage of Sex and the city)

Tat'll be another chapter of life. :)

i miss home ....

i miss home....
Just 2 weeks back in IPG Kampus Temenggong Ibrahim, Johor Bahru, i've started to miss home...honestly, i can't wait for this final year to finish. 6 years!! that's very long, i'm not doing medicine or architect.

i realized that's just emotional rush. 6 years is not that long. how much have i achieved? Have I grown up into a more matured lady? hm..i pleated my hair 5 years ago, this morning i still play with it. :P guess the kiddy-ness in me is still thr.

back to school is a good feeling. i've settled down with my new roommate, cynthia. she's from kuching too. very funny, all of us have changed roommates. guess it's all in His plans.

wanna share one testimony here: Praise the Lord~ our ketua jabatan actually accepted our letter of absence of 1 week (Maktab is extremely particular about absenties since the new pengarah took over) without much questioning. and the best part is that she told KO to put present for our one week attendace~!! This entry is not to encourage others or allow myself to skip more classes, but that...all glory to Him =)

I miss home..
thought updating my blog or fb or indulge myself in movies will bring the homesickness away, but it remains..sobx..hari raya, faster approach~

but there are times when i'm afraid the time will fly very fast, because that means we're near to posting~ posting!! this is the scary part about teaching, mayb not all that scary. but the thought of leaving home, again, for God knows how many years, and where this time, can bring tears to my eyes...i can't imagine myself being posted to somewhere deep and unfamiliar like the jungles of pahang or the mountains of sabah...yes, i love nature, going for a 5 days vacation is fun, but 5 years?! please take my fear away...i salute my seniors for taking their responsibilities with such courage =) mayb this final year is the year for me to equip myself to face the reality of working life..

i miss home..

Happy moments at Level Up Fitness Centre

Another week has passed. Thanks to Kenny Sia's Level Up, I had had a great time working out. Though I didnt see any visible weight loss, I felt healthy, and happy. Indeed, doing different sports are far more interesting than the mundane ones, like jogging every day. haha..Back up: I havn't jog for ages, cuz it's just so lonely to do things alone. Tsk tsk...

So far, we've attended Busman's dance aerobic, very funny! Especially the indian movements! Kate's Fitness ball, man, this is super tiring~ Amazed by how much one can do with just one ball..imagine, hvin two! Bluek~ Lyn's Salsa Class is one which we can wear high heels to class. Belly Dance~ Oh my, I like this~! Sway, sway sway~! Haven't try their Poco-Poco Dance, Body combat etc.. if i got posted to kuching next year, i will surely sign up for long term membership! It's just so fun~!

Or maybe cuz they're new things. I realized i've a habit of loving new things, cuz mayb their fresh. Wakaka. But hey, i do stil like mountain climbing, karaoke, badminton and bowling...friends, anyone free for these activities for the coming 2 weeks?

Life Game 2010 Sibu

Happiness doubled; troubles divided.


We got married at the age of 27, had our first born Grace at 44 and little Irene at 49. Before marriage, I was a businesswoman selling food. Frankly speaking, I earned a lot of money but I was so busy and neglected my health and basic necessities in life; I aged quick thus. Education can improve one's life in terms of job prospects and prestige.



While cutting queue (I have high prestige points so I can 'overtake' the 'lower class society'), XW came and asked 'Why don't we get married?' For Love? Not really. To save cost of living. Partially. The real reason I nodded my head out of joy is simply because I've knew this church member for a 2 years, and he's a good man; had a solid job as Banking Sales Manager, owns a car and yes, he had had insurance. A man who prioritize health and knew the importance of insurance earns 'plus points' easily! *wink wink*


I gave discount to those who were in need of food, but how many mouths can one person feed?

I decided working and earning so much is useless because no one will share the joy with me. Who should I inherit my wealth to? I stopped my business for 15 years, as this job is risky and husband don't want me to die earlier than him. I remembered him hurrying off to buy our wedding ring while I queued up at the registrar. Out of the hundreds, a handful of citizens realized the beauty and importance of getting married and settle down instead of chasing after education, money and more prestige; or for the poor and sick, pursuing for survival.



I witnessed other married couples and later we went to take our wedding photo. The news reporter came and asked how did my husband propose to me. I decided to keep that answer a secret; somethings are just not meant to be shared. *wink wink* I put on the veil and the photographer snapped our cheerful smile. Marriage before God is not something to fool about, commitments, trust and faith begin to play its role in helping us to plan our future ahead, as a couple.


Gracefully Gracious. May you Shine for the Lord always~

Time flies. We heard news of neighbors dying; our newly appointed Free City Mayor was murdered in a robbery, leaving his beloved wife behind. That is when we decided to have children and inherit our property for them so they would start off their life with riches. Yes, MONEY IS IMPORTANT. Without money, we can't get education; without education, we can barely get a good job. Without a good job, we will die of hunger or cold. And, without money and prestige, it is hard to get a wife/husband. Ps, finding job is tough. Amen I am a future teacher and the secured path is laid. I remembered the tough moments and humiliation I received when I failed for the insurance interview. Thankfully, my husband was with me through the ups and downs; as I was with him at the hospital when he diced 'health disease' and we went for medical checkups for pregnancy hope. Luckily both of us bought insurance, therefore our medical expanses are covered. Those who have financial difficulties would have to suffer from illness and hunger.


'I was blind, but now I see." John 9:25

People were dying. I feared I would die earlier than my husband and Grace was still learning how to crawl. I counted my personal savings, 'Yes, these savings would be enough for him and the kids to survive to the end of his of life.' He feared of me dying earlier too, thus asked 'Why not we make another baby?" I was moved. He decided to make the WILL with me so after delivering Irene, we went to the court to make the couple will for our little angels. The moment we signed the will, I felt relieved; relieved because I had done the best I could for my children.



For your information, I was still living on our savings and his salary. We were quite free while others were buzzing up and down in their life. I wondered what is LIFE all about? Is it just to fulfill our stomach with food, and have better house to stay and branded cars to drive and expensive clothes to wear? Yes and no. Living a luxurious life does earn you the prestige points, people look high upon you and you get to have certain privileges while others can't. Through our life, we did search for God and our church. But we failed.



Tsunami came. Some were swept off by the current. Earthquake occurred. Some died; the stock market dropped drastically; people were still seen exchanging goods and making deals. 'Prolonged Life' policy emerged; battles among neighbors. Is the world coming to an end...Are you READY?

Sorry I have to end my story here.

GOOD NEWS!! To those who are interested to experienced your LIFE GAME, contact Ms.Ling Na at 016-8931929 or 010-9600329. Yvonne and I had found our purpose in life and are now experiencing our second life, how about you?


It's hard to stay straight in this slippery world. Stay close to ME. -GOD.
"Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think." The Bible - Romans 12:2 (NLT)


God Bless you all~
Warmest regards,
Yiing.

Yvonne and I went for our 1st Salsa Class (^_^)

Thanks Kenny Sia! n Level Up and Pam for introducing free trial salsa class for us, we've finally registered one week earlier, n had our first salsa dance. many youngsters our age (gee, 23 is still young :P) enrolled for the class. Instructor Lynn and Steven can really sway their bodies~ pheweet!



Salsa is a syncretic dance genre from Cuba, as the meeting point of European and African popular culture. It later spread to Puerto Rico and the rest of the Caribbean islands. Salsa is essentially Cuban with deep Afro-Cuban beats, and additional musical influences from Son, Guaguancó, Rumba.[1]

Salsa is normally a partner dance, although there are recognized solo forms, line dancing (suelta), and Rueda de Casino where groups of couples exchange partners in a circle. Salsa can be improvised or performed with a set routine.

Salsa is popular throughout Latin America, and also in the United States, Spain, Japan, Portugal, France, Eastern Europe and Italy.

All in all, it's a fun and memorable learning experience. I'm not fast at remembering the steps, kinda confusing..only the turning and making a round movement captures my attention! =)

Officially 23 (^_^)

I turned 23.

Thanks to Yvonne, Ed and friends for throwing a surprise bday for me...the first and the best!!




I would like to ask for forgivness, if i ever hurt anyone...



I hope this year will be a year of spiritual, emotional and intelligence growth for me



I don't want to self-centred this year, but to really reached out and touched lives.





Will be doing some part time tutoring this semester break, hope God will give me wisdom and confidence in moulding the future generation and that my students will learn and enjoy my classes.



Will be doin some part time promoting jobs too, for extra incomes. such as insurance, telco lines etc...pay doesnt really matter at the moment, as i just want to fill my holiday with something fun and beneficial.



Looking forward to LifeCamp at sibu this 3-5th June. Surprisingly, i'm not that depressed bout not going Taiwan and London, a tinge of regret does exists, nothing more can be done. so to my hubby out thr,pls bring me thr someday soon! :P



k, wishing all happiness and good health. will end this entry with an inspirational poem i read from The Borneo Post, Good English "Try to Remember the Good Things" by Sherrie L. Householder


When times become difficult
(and you know they sometimes will)
remember a moment in your life
that was filled with joy
and happiness.
Remember how it made you feel,
and you will have the strength
you need to get through any trial.
When life throws you on more obstacle
than you think you can handle,
remember something you achieved
through persevrance
and by struggling to the end.

In doing so,you'll find
you have the ability to overcome
each obstacle brought your way.
When you find yourself drained
and depleted of energy,
remember to finda place
of sanctuary and rest.

Take the necessary time
in your own life
to dream your dreams
and renew your energy,
so you'll be ready to face
each new day.

When you feel tension building,
find somehting fun to do.
You'll find that the stress you feel
will dissipate and your thoughts
will become clearer.

When you're faced with so many negative
and draining situatiins,
realise how minuscule
problems will seem
when you view your life as a whole -
and remember the positive things.

Buffet anyone?

EVERY HUMAN MUST WATCH THESE PHOTOS........




每个人必须观看这些照片........







BALANCE FOOD DUMPED ON THE SOIL AFTER THE PARTY




ONE PART OF THE WORLD WASTING THE FOOD







ANOTHER PART OF THE WORLD DOESNT HAVE FOOD TO RUN THEIR LIFE













DON'T waste FOODS any more........ ......... ......
DON'T waste FOODS any more,
DONATE for needy


HEAL THE WORLD

There´s a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could
Be much brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try
You´ll find there´s no need to cry
In this place you´ll feel
There´s no hurt or sorrow

There are ways
To get there
If you care enough
For the living
Make a little space
Make a better place

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough
For the living
Make a better place
For you and for me


Let this be remembered.. . each time we throw away Foods!
people who are live in rich countries,, don't know this,, don't want to know
this,, never understand this!

but U,, please U,, understand this ..................................






不要浪费任何更多的食品，
不要浪费任何更多的食品，
为有需要的捐赠


拯救世界

有一个在你的心中有个地方
而我知道这是爱
这个地方会
会比明天更灿烂
如果你真的尝试
你会发现没有必要哭泣
在这个地方，你会觉得
有没有受伤或悲伤

有办法
到那里
如果你真心关怀
对于生活
设为一点空间
创造一个更美好的地方

拯救世界
让它变得更美好
为你，为我
和整个人类
不断有人死去，
如果你真心关怀
对于生活
创造一个更美好的地方
为你，为我


让我们记住这.. 。每次我们丢掉食品！
谁是人民生活在富裕的国家，不知道这个，也不想知道
这个，从来没有明白这一点！

但你，请你，认识到这一点..................................





----feels shameful after i read this. how many of us eat like there's no tomorrow? buffets etc. actually we all know how little portion we need. not only will we stay healthy, but feels guilt free? haha. anyway, hope all readers spread the words of love =) ----