Quotation of the Day

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

we are a global village, says Pa (^_^)

souvenirs from our foster parents.  adorable rabbit righto? thanks pa ma :)

my pa and ma in Taiwan. super warm and friendly parents. our blessing :)

my foster sister.  adorable righto? sweet 16 :)

tea after sumptious dinner with taiwan beer and whisky. ah..warm n delicious hakka dish!! thanks ma n pa!

my ma. hope to see you soon!

pa shared with us bout the culture of hakka and taiwan.  drinking wine is a must during every meal as it is winter now.  even during summer, they've to drink beer or the food doesnt taste complete.  ma and pa are a lovely couple.  their only son, our didi, is doing  his health science at taiwan university, year 2, 2 years younger than me.  thanks for your hospility, welcome to malaysia pa n ma!! (^_^)

Monday, December 6, 2010

TAIWAN, here I come (^_^)

T he day has finally
A rrived.
I am excited
W as busy packing till 3am dawn
A nd is still wondering if i missed anything
N othing's gonna stop us girls~

H ere I am
E agerly heading to Kuching International Airport
R eady to have breakfast with Ida and family
E ver hoping things will go on smooth.

I am happy!!

C ome, travel mode, come
O ver the rainbows
M erry Christmas to all
E xciting trip this will be

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Work or Relax?

PC Fair Sensonic Promoter @ Permata 

Just back from Permata, PC Fair starting tomorrow till this Sunday.  Spent 3 hours arranging the stock.  The above picture is one of the booth MCL is supplying too.  I'll be promoting Sensonic accessories while other team members will be doing Logitech.  For this first time PC fair working experience, I actually rejected other jobs with higher pay, Yiing yiing..btw, typing with headache now. hope i can get through these 3 days, happily.

Promoter for Legends Car Accessory @ The Hills

The first part time job this holiday. and of the easiest, with highest pay. haha. comments? easy, not challenging and i find it boring as the hours tick by.  the only fun part is taking photo with the pretty ladies...and the pay XD
Ribena blackcurrant and strawberry @ Padungan Everise

sorta like Captivate. the trialing specialist job i took while studying at UPM.  Good pay (west msia) but standing long hours. to make myself happier, i give away free drinks to the staff and let customers 'win' the choice of lucky draws they want. wakaka. since i've lots of  free time standing, i observe ppl.  babies attract me the most, then to old folks shopping together, family huhuhaha, married couple holding hands, youngsters energetic always on the go, and little girls and boys eyeing on ribena but don't dare to ask from me, until their parents stood up for them. haha!

Cambrige @ Jln Song.  Kiddy 1 & Kiddo class.

of all the few jobs above, this is my favorite!  some might think it's tacky, some think boring, but to me, it's - passion.  i get to sit, talk,play and see the kids learn.  They can be pretty noisy, till the management came in and gave warning, but kids being kids, they'll be quiet awhile, then ... haha. one more thing, some students can be much 'slower' compared to others, and i don't like it when the more brilliant ones bully him. that  is when i will pilih kasih, and give the slower ones easier work. hehe. and i remembered one malay student, who scored 100% (with my assistance), he smiled so happily and asked for more tests to do. wah. and when i tell him, today's my last day teaching him, his smile disappeared, askin when will i be back, and that other teachers don't really teach him. i bought him a small gift, and advised him to study hard.

why do i work? it makes me so tired, like now. but when i'm at home for too long, i feel useless and super bored. most prob cuz im the youngest, everyone's off to work, and no ones free to chat with me on msn in the daytime. why not shopping or movies? need money, derh.  and when the salary is banked in:

my first STAGE products, using my own hard earned money...(^_^)

before. lunch with pam and julian at Novus Cafe, Brighton Square.
Ray Academy's 'si fu' from KL =)
hair wash, blow and...tada, my new fringe...3 hrs self-pamper (^_^)

Monday, November 29, 2010

Brief idea of our Taiwan Trip

Tada~! So this is TAIWAN.

Next Wednesday noon, we shall land at TTY (TaoYuan International Airport ).
Need to bring my Punjabi Costume as there's a welcoming party that night at Hotel Today.  Won't be expecting a 4/5 starts luxurious hotel, as our main objectives there would not be shopping, but experiencing Hakka culture and staying with host families. Wonder if i'd learnt to order my favourite Lei Cha in Hakka when i'm home. (^_^)

 On the 5th day, we'll be visiting Peipu Hakka Village, staying at Land of Mystery Forest Resort Village.  Honestly, the names of the hotels sounds close to nature =) Sadly, hot springs are not included in our schedule, but as I googled, this photo is shown at Peipu Township:

TAadda~ Seems like Lundu waterfall to me. haha! but it would be winter when we are there, so im wondering if the hotsprings are really warm.  So, organizers, can we go? Perhaps i should include hot springs visit in my email to my host family =P

Day 8: Homestay at Miaoli.  Wonder how'd my 'family' there be like :) We're going to cycle around this village~~! Still remember my childhood times with Pam, cycling full force from the main road down the small hill, handsfree, no breaks, syok~...and landed in the longkang! haha.

 Hualien: Taroko National Park.

Nice?? This is Hualien.  We'll be taking the train from Taoyuan to Hualien on the 10th Day.

We'll experience the Natural Ecology at this Chishingtan beach @ Miaoli in the afternoon.  Hopefully the weather is this good then! *smiling*

Shihling Night Market. 
Yang Ming Shan National Park


fast forward to the second last day:

May God bless this trip!! (^_^)

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanks Giving :)

learnt from facebook that it's Thanks Giving today. Will just list down the ten things that i'm grateful of here as memory :)

1. My loving parents. They supported us financially, physically and emotionally. I must be an obedient daughter after i'm married :)

2. My siblings. Though sis is not staying with us anymore, and i really missed our pillow talk. Going to spend a happy day with her and brother in law tomorrow. Brother sprained his knee yesterday, hope he'll recover asap. Love lots!

3. Andrew. Thank you Lord :)

4. My close friends. Yvonne, pamela, ying ying, josephine, alice, huey, so many.. Thank you all :)

5. Going to Taiwan next Tuesday! Finally! After the big Aiesec disappointment last semester, i'm so touched that i'm being selected to go for this hakka trip, going with Pam and Kim somemore! Hope it's gonna be loads of fun and memorable experience!

6. Working opportunities. I love money. I hate boredom. I love travelling. Who doesn't? And, i find passion in teaching. i'm so grateful to have classes to teach this hols. With family's subsidy and these part time jobs, i think it'll be sufficient for the upcoming trip :)

7. Safety on the road. I confess i'm not a superb driver. And i'm extremely stressed when it's my turn to ferry juniors to church. But Thank God for the safe trips :)

8. Staying out next semester. Most likely, i'll be staying out with my practicum partner next semester. Gotta be more independent and tolerance and understanding are needed :)

9. My comforter. Ah, u made me warm tonight. Thanks! :)

10. N78 and wifi. Be good, and stay on with me for long ya.. :) sweet dreams all :)

Thursday, November 18, 2010

The wonder of English (@_@)

Let's face it -- English is a crazy language!

There's no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat.

We take English for granted. But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square, and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth? One goose, two geese. So one moose, two meese? One index, two indices?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend, that you comb through the annals of history but not a single annal? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat? If you wrote a letter, perhaps you bote your tongue?

Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell? Park on driveways and drive on parkways?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? How can overlook and oversee be opposites, while quite a lot and quite a few are alike? How can the weather be hot as hell one day and cold as hell another?

Have you noticed that we talk about certain things only when they are absent? Have you ever seen a horseful carriage or a strapful gown? Met a sung hero or experienced requited love?

Have you ever run into someone who was discombobulated, gruntled, ruly or peccable? And where are all those people who ARE spring chickens or who would ACTUALLY hurt a fly?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling out and in which an alarm clock goes off by going on.

English was invented by people, not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race (which, of course, isn't a race at all).

That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible. And why, when I wind up my watch, I start it, but when I wind up this essay, I end it!

(This essay has been attributed to Richard Lederer.)

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Language Tests in Malaysia

The major English Language tests in Malaysia are those taken durnig the Primary School Assessment Examination (Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah or UPSR), the Lower Secondary Assessment (Penilaian Menengah Rendah or PMR), the Malaysian Certificate of Education (Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia or SPM) and the Malaysian Universities English Test or MUET which are generally national level standardized forms of assessment. The first three examinations are developed by the Malaysian Examination Syndicate, a body directly under the Malaysian Ministry of Education while the MUET is developed by the Malaysian Education Council, a statutory body under the same ministry. These four tests can also be considered high-stakes examinations because many important decisions that affect the students' education and later career path are made on the basis of the performance of these examinations.

It is interesting to note that there have been several shifts in the policy in recent years with respect to language tests in Malaysia. The most notable has arguably been the development and use of the Malaysian Universities English Test or MUET which was introduced in 1999. Although this test measures four skills in the English language, the greatest impact has been on the testing of speaking skills. Because it is closely linked to tertiary education and entrance into local institutions of higher learning, candidates taking the MUET are smaller in number compared to the nationwide standardized examinations that all school-going children sit for. The fewer number of candidates allows for a relatively longer and more intensive test of spoken English ability.

Another development in testing in Malaysia has been the introduction of school based tests. These tests, which emphasise the assessment of speaking ability, have many implications iin teaching and learning of the English language. The objectives of the secondary school Forms 4 and 5 school based oral exams and the SPM Oral English Test, are to assess the candidates' ability to:

1. converse on a topic,
2. speak fluently,
3. speak coherently,
4. give appropriate response,
5. speak using language appropriately within context,
6. speak using correct and acceptable pronunciation,
7. speak using correct grammar, and
8. speak using a wide range of appropriate vocabulary.

It can be anticipated that the washback effects of these tests will promote the teaching and learning of aural-oral skills in the classroom. At both the primary and secondary school levels,, the schools based oral examinations require studentsto perform oral tasks in various configurations or models. These models vary according to the task the student has to perform, the interlocutors involved,and the role of the teacher-examiner.

The two developments in English language tests in Malaysia described above are positive trends that can lead to improved teaching practice in the classroom. Several other aspects that have been introduced together with the school based exas and the MUET have also contributed to the validity of the tests. In the MUET, for example, score reporting is vastly improved over the SPM English language oral test. Candidates are provided feedback interms of how they performed in four different skills. In contrast to this, candidates of the SPM English test are only provided with a single grade although the test assesses their ability in different skills.

School based examinations also tend to be formative and hence are more beneficial to the learning process than the summative type, end of the year exams. However, when school based examinations contribute to the final grade of such high stakes examinations as in Malaysia, a great deal of professionalism among teachers is required. Because of pressure to perform, teachers may be tempted to inflate scores of their own students. Other teachers may fail to appreciate the value of school based examinations and not conduct the examinations carefully. School based examinations require additional commitment from teachers as they need to manage the examinations in their schools. Although school based examinations may pose some problems in the early stages, these problems may be resolved with time, proper training and increased familiarity.

-Essentials of Language Testing for Malaysian Teachers by Arshad Abd. Samad-

Monday, October 25, 2010

Bibliotheraphy - Text as the Key to the Soul


Rublin 1993:331 mentions that bibliotheraphy is considered "reading guidance given by teachers and librarians to help students with their personal problems.

It is defined as “the use of books to help individuals to cope better with their problems.”

In bibliotheraphy, students are encouraged to find answers in a positive, intellectual and logical ways.

Literature texts in all genres are used to help these students to understand themselves better. This understanding is essential for mental and physical health and fulfilment.

If fiction is able to reflect for the reader his complicated and sometimes shameful feelings, he feels less alone. He is, as if were, given permission to think and to feel those things that he has considered unacceptable.” (Gillies, 1988)

The selected literature texts will enable the students to see that there are many solutions to their problems. Bibliotheraphy presents facts that the students need to solve/face their problems. It creates an outlet for the students to channel their emotional and behavioural problems and come out with solutions.

It encourages the students to plan pratical course of action and carry it out. As the result they can confront their problems effectively. There are four activities related to bibliotheraphy:

1. Group discussion on the characters of the text.
2. Watching films
3. Simulation and role playing
4. Writing about experiences

1. Anxiety and anger
2. Dealing with loss
3. Experiences related to death
4. Dealing with love

Students need to be exposed to positive ways in dealing with human issues such as:
1. Tragedy
2. Happiness
3. Hate
4. Love
5. Conflicts

Literary texts can withstand the test of time and culture.

Shakespearean plays often changed to suit the society in the 15th century. However, the plays are still relevant until today for their universal values in the rise and fall of the heroes and villains. The moral, political, social issues also make the play relevant today.

Nowadays, the focus is less on the deeds of heroes and villains but rather the psychoanalytic and dialectic perspectives. Human experiences and human conditions are touched, shared and imparted from the teacher to the students and vice versa.

Literature proves the best opportunity to see and feel how the English language is used to describe and to tell the experience within culture and traditions of the people using it. Simmons and Deluzai (1991) suggest four important psychological implications that a literature teacher should consider:

1. Empathy
 correlative experience deals with background knowledge that the students have in relation to the content of the materials read. As they read, readers ask themselves how happenings in their lives can be related to what is happening in the text.

2. Verisimilitude
 young adults have different perception of reality from children and adult. The theme of self definition and initiation to adulthood are good for teenagers.

3. Suspension
 a teacher needs to take into consideration on how willing are the students to believe what is not real.

4. Symbolism
 Critical reading skills are important so that the students are aware of the possible relationship of literary symbols with the fundamental human experience. Adolescents have limited human experiences. Therefore, the texts and the teacher need adapt to this limitation.

Bibliotheraphy can be used for a variety of reasons to help children overcome problems or situations they are facing or may face. Children have many needs that should be addressed to help them develop a positive self-concept. Physiological needs are the most basic needs that must be met.

Children also must feel safe, loved, and the need to belong in a group (family, school, peer or other)

If these needs are met through the use of bibliotheraphy, the child will be able to accomplish the following:

1. Develop a more positive sense of themselves.
2. Learn about the world
3. Cope with stress
4. Provide insight into problems
5. Affirm thoughts and feelings
6. Stimulate discussions about problems,
7. Create an awareness of others that have similar problems
8. Provide solutions to problems
9. Communicate new values and attitudes
10. Find meaning in life

These are all goals that a facilitator would like to accomplish when implementating bibliotheraphy (Comett et. Al, 1980; Alex, 2006; Jackson & Nelson, 2002-04)

Select a short story, poem and a novel that can help students deal with:
1. School bully
2. Heart break
3. Nasty teacher
4. First crush

Create a simple activity for each selected text. The teaching aids must be in the form of high and low tech.

-B.Ed TESL cohort 4,UPM-IPG KTI (2010)

No longer proud.


A bible in front of me
"Essentials of Language Testing for Malaysian Teachers" on my left
Notes on "Focus on ELT Materials" on my right
"Injustice - corrupted Malaysian policemen" on my mind

Am I even 'safe' to post out my current thoughts
Will the higher authority barged in
and handcuffed me though i am innocent?

I don't understand
Why are there so many serious crimes out there unsolved
yet the policemen can find pleasure in being a sadist?

This is only one of the few incidents I read
what about the others?
How many out there are suffering and being discriminated?
Why are there no actions taken in curbing the issue?

I don't feel proud at all being a Malaysian
I even feel my profession of being a teacher is not all that noble
For these policemen had had their teachers too
Have those teachers not taught them how to be a human?

- Sad, down, disappointed, demotivated -

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Finals are just two days away.
But that didn't stop me from doing the things I like:
1. helping out as instructors at SDRARY English Language Camp 2010
2. communicating with my darling 1-2 hours a day
3. sleeping and sleeping
4. finally, having a kapal-berstim with my girls~

1. SDARY - SMK Dato' Abdul Rahman Yassin, Johor Bahru

This 2 days camp gives me the golden opportunity to:
a) have a glimpse of how active 15years old are.
b) the songs they are interested in: Justin Bieber's 'Baby'
c) be amazed by how the principal presented 'English can be Fun' ppp.
d) reminisce my school days PBSM/ Chinese Club/ Prefect days
e) have a good time with my coursemates in making this camp a success

2. Communication breaks barrier.

Distance relationship is never easy, for me, and I believe, for many out there. Not to be discourage, as there are equally successes and failures in both distance and daily-cuddling relationships. Though my lecturer advised us to have more than 1 boyfriend as back up plan, I find it rather impossible, as first, the trust will no longer be there. Secondly, how can one split her life/time to satisfy both men?

3. 8 hours of beauty sleep (^_^)

This activity just makes me happier and feels more alive each time I open my eyes. Ah... Thank God for quality nap/beautiful sweet dreams (^_^)

4. Fun activities at the midst of exam-battle

1. Bowling - Gambling is prohibited in all religion, but betting a cup of Mc Flurry can make the game all more motivating and fun. Not? :P

2. Kapal Berstim - Shop, Cut, Boil, Mix, Dip, Dish out + Laughter and sharing.

That's all folks, happy revising~ All the best in your exams, coursemates. Happy holidays to those post PMR students and post-exams friends. Happy working to all nation-builders, in a way. GBU (^_^)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Grace, Faith, Hope (^_^)


You graced me with faith which produced hope,
and I am truly putting high hopes on it.
Will it happen?
Am i that lucky?
Please, let this little dream come true..
These are the excitement I have, now.

Dad told me when i was young,
never to put too high a hope,
or when it didnt come true,
i'll be truly devasted.
He don't want to see his princess hurt,
For that, I love you daddy!

I've come to learn
to submit everything to His will.
He gives,
and He can take.
But I rememebered Pastor Kenneth's preaching
He will only give the BEST for us
not the good, or second
but the BEST.

in our lives,
we have had disappointments
but when we look at the larger picture,
Things just got better,
aren't they?
It did happen to me,
It does,
and It WILL continue to be :)

May we learn to have Faith,
knowing that He is always there with us
from the little things like being selected for XXX,
to bigger things like careers and family.

-Hopeful & Counting the Grace-
Silverin Yiing (^_^)

Thursday, September 30, 2010

May barriers be shaken and tumbled down.

Today is the last day of my school based experience at SMK Sultanah Engku Tun Aminah. Time flies. I've to write reflections and sum up my portfolio. But here i am, typing out what's on my mind but not on microsoft words for some things are not meant to be printed out for supervision. anyway, the lesson i learnt throughout this week would be that every is a unique creation of God.

We might have negative perception of someone. and our reactions towards that one particular incident or that person might be 'unsightful'. what i'm trying to say, if we think we can have the right to be angry, sad, happy or grateful of someone; then ohter person, do have the authority to hurt, despise, enjoy or feel annoyed of your presence. i don't know you get what im trying to express here, the simple key falls back to that we have our own perception. i might think your idea is not good, as u might think mine is irresponsible. i might think u are being pessimistic, as u might think i have an attitude problem. but whatever thinking or different perception each of us have, we should respect each other's opinion and by all means, not hurting each other's feelings. yes, when it comes to females, especially pms, emotions play a big role in determining what is being said.

For that, i would like to pray that all barriers will be shacken n tumbled down; where fresh roses, sunflowers and water lilies will grow up healthy and radiant under the basking sunlight of yet another wonderful creation of our Almighty God.

Peace be with you all (^_^)

Friday, September 24, 2010

Vote, why wait?

Volunteering at Tebrau City, August 2010 (^_^)

Ho Jia Yiing (144487)
B.Ed TESL 1 (Cohort 4)
Persuasive Speech: Vote, why wait?

"The Government is useless, there is nothing they can do to make our lives better, the rising prices, the unemployment, the escalating crime rate…they have no answers", said Mike. "Well, if you are really concerned about all these things, you should have voted Mikey!", said John. "May be a better candidate would have won, and may be he would have taken some effective measures for improvement…Unless you vote you just can’t blame the government, because you have failed your duties!"

Good morning Ladies and Gentlemen,

Welcome to our Registration for Voting Booth at Tebrau City. I hope you can spare 3-minutes off your shopping time to listen and be persuaded to register for your right to vote. Have you registered? Yes? Thank you, you do us proud! Kindly invite your friends and family who have yet to register to drop by our booth as we are students who volunteer part time to assist in this campaign only for today. Not yet register? Good, you are at the right place at the right time and are going to do the right thing!

This registration will only take 3 minutes. Please give the volunteers your I.C. and they will pass it to the SRP officers over there for on-the-spot registration. Thank you. For those who are still hesitant, do make your decision after you listen to my brief sharing on why we, as citizens of Malaysia should vote.

Ladies and gentlemen,

Voting connects citizens with their political process. It helps choose our leaders, especially leaders who share our views or those who may inspire us. This registration campaign is not held by any specific parties but volunteers. Our aim is simple: To tell the public that the simple act of marking a ballot tells our leaders what we think about decisions that affect our lives. An example would be how much taxation we think is fair or what issues, such as health care or the environment, we think are most important for our beloved Malaysia, and our future generation.

Also, voting connects us to one another as citizens. By taking part in an election and by expressing our point of view, we help our democracy work. By agreeing or disagreeing with our leaders who show that the political system can accept differing points of views and can resolve them.

If you still are not convinced, let me assure you that voting helps to safeguard our freedoms. A democratic community can only survive if its citizens see participation in the political process as a duty and a responsibility. By voting, each citizen participates in a process that might lead to other forms of involvement, such as working for a political party or even running for election.

My respected Malaysians,

If you are one of those people who still think that voting is a waste of time and keep on complaining about how the government is a complete failure; then, this is the right time you realize the importance of voting, and do your bit towards enhancing the government functioning!

Voting ensures that your opinions are taken into account while appointing the person who holds the reins of power. People who are elected have the power to formulate educational policies which are instrumental in shaping the future of children and hence the future of the nation itself. Yes, the future of our children and the nation is in your hands!

Health care, highways, jobs, taxes or even food, the elected representatives have the power to take decisions over some of the most vital issues in our life! So would you be comfortable in letting ‘just anybody’ take over these powers, without exercising your right to vote? Voting, Voting is one of the fundamental processes, which is instrumental in the development of a healthy democracy.

Our next election is approaching, though the exact dates are yet to be announced, try to think of the people who are living under tyrannical dictatorships or are under curfews and cannot exercise their right to opinion. Your right to vote is your right to expression and opinion. DO NOT take your right for granted. Try and appreciate the power of voting by exercising it now!

Ladies and gentlemen,

I hope you are now convinced to take the simple and vital step to register for voting rights today, now, this instant. Thank you for your time and support. Feel free to drop by our booth if you have further enquiries. May God bless our nation!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Love is Forgiving (^_^)

XXX: I don't understand why you made such decision!(forgiving)

A: It's LOVE~

With the strings of painful (literally and emotianally) events, I've really got to learn from all these. Today, Pastor Kung from China, preached about "What if he's Jesus?" - Matthew 25:31-40

It's basically about those who feed the hungry, shelter the homeless, quench the thirst will be rewarded the right seating. We'll not know what form Jesus will come in, is He the beggar or our discipline teacher? In short, her message is 'Just Do Good'. HE's watching from above, each and every action of ours will be known; especially those little things you did when you are alone.

I find this sermon connects perfectly with the fellowship session conducted by Mei Shan sis. She shared about the story of Jonah. God asked Jonah to share the gospel at the fallen NiNiland, but being disobedient but a faithful servant, he backed away; got into a ship; wrecked; volunteered to be thrown over the ship as God is causing the storm signalling him to go to NiNiland. He was alive despite being in the whale's tummy for 3 days. (Suggested to do further reading of the story at Jonah's book if interested)

Lesson learnt: Seek forgiveness.

Everyone knows the truth that forgiving can bring joy and salvage relationships; but how many of us can actually do that? Last week, I was advised by few friends that to salvage a relationship, we must 'Lay down your pride, and ask for forgiveness' He did, I did; relationship salvaged~ (^_^) He's egocentric, I'm stubborn; doomed relationship. As simple as that?

Thank you to all who's helped/hurt, consoled/cursed, loved/hated, forgiven/grudged against me, I choose to move on
Conclusion: God makes us miserable through conviction to make us joyful through confession.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Interpreting Dreams :)

Do you still dream? And if you do, do you remember your dream? These two days, i've been taking afternoon naps; setting alarm for a 45minx max nap but always ended at 5:45pm, (extra 2 hrs) when chinese uncle is bout to send dinner. anyway, today i remember my dream and i recall my secondary English teacher taught us bout dream; that we should write down our dream if we recalled immediately or we'll forget very soon. I just remember a fragment of it. This is how it goes:

I was walking back from my primary school SRB Chung Hua No:1. The old ice-cream uncle who always brings cheers to children is now replaced by a young adult lady. sadly,she didnt sell the bun icecream i remembered i ordered. so i left the busstop, heading home(i've been walking home after school since my Tadika Sri Keria, Chung Hua No:1 and SMK Kuching High). anyway, as i was walking past the row of houses besides the busstop, i took out my old faithful nokia 6200 and threw it into a house garden,i forgot if i did aim at the duck. yes, i remembered the white coloured duck with yellow beaks; like the ones we draw when we were young. Soon after that throw, suddenly the sunny day glooms. i remember pacing up. as usual, we have to cross the road at the 'big tree' into my house's junction.

but someone, who i didnt realize was accompanyin throughout my walk, overshoot. she's yvonne. (in case u r reading,don't laugh; u've appeared in my dreams, like other friends) but this time, it's only Yvonne, but she overshot, heading straight to civic centre direction, leaving me behind. i have crossed the road when i realized. so i took out my other nokia n78 (lucky i didnt throw this)n called her; she answered, turned back, laughed at herself and crossed the road. we walked home. i remembered the instant i reached home, it started to rain; a very heavy rainpour. watching the sky changes and big droplets coming down, i can't remember what was i thinking that time. i think i remembered dreaming bout my brother. that's when i woke up.

TATA. Msg sis bout this dream n googled up some keypoints. Let's see the interpretation:

Cell Phone
To see or use a cell phone in your dream, indicates that you are being receptive to new information. It also represents your mobility. Alternatively, the dream signifies lack of understanding. Perhaps you are having difficulties getting through to someone.

To dream that you lost your cell phone, represents a lack of communication. You have lost touch with some aspect of your feelings or your Self.�If you find a cell phone, then it symbolizes reconnection and reopened communication.

Personal reflection:
Now i remembered what was i thinking while watching the rainpour. i was thinking of rushing out back to my phone, i want it back; it was a sudden irrational act to throw it away. but in my dream, i didnt go out of my comfort zone,cuz the rain was too heavy and i assumed my phone would be soaked by rain water and definitely spoilt. and yes, recently i've faced some serious communication break down. exactly 7days ago till today.

To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

To dream that you are watching the rain from a window, indicates that spiritual ideas and insights are being brought to your awareness. It may also symbolize fortune and love.

To hear rain tapping on the roof, denotes spiritual ideas coming to fruition in your mind.

Personal Reflection:
i need forgiveness now, from a lot of ppl whom i've hurt and caused them to worry. thankfully, time heals n now they no longer call/msg to 'check up'; it is a blessing to have friends esp when one is in need of a shoulder; n in my case, shoulderS :P yes, i've been doubtin bout my SQ last week, thankfully it's not long for Him to hold back my hands :P

To see ducks in your dream, represent your spiritual freedom (if flying) or the unconscious (if swimming).�They serve as a connection between the spiritual realm and the physical world. Ducks are multi-talented animals in that they can walk, swim and fly. Thus, a duck indicates your flexibility and your ability to blend and adapt in various situations. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are setting yourself up or being set up for the kill as associated by the phrase "sitting duck". Are you being targeted? Also, the duck may be a pun on "ducking" some issue or situation, instead of confronting it head-on. Consider the phrase, "if it looks like a duck, walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, it's a duck". Some things are too obvious to deny.

To see a white duck in your dream, signifies falsehood and deceit.

To see a two-headed duck in your dream, suggests that you need to be more grounded. You need to thoroughly think through some emotional issue.

Ice Cream
To see or eat ice cream in your dream, denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.

To dream that you are eating bad or sour ice cream, signifies sorrow, disillusionment, or betrayal.

To see ice cream melt in your dream, symbolizes failure to realize your hopes and desires.

Personal Reflection:
Great! i didn't get to eat the ice cream, meaning i didnt get to enjoy "good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life" Luckily, i didnt get to eat sour icecream nor did it melt, yahoo~ :P

To see friends in your dream, signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend, indicates positive news.

To see your girlfriend in your dream, represents your waking relationship with her and how you feel about her.

Lolx, i don't know if this girl-friend or if a guy googled bout his special gf. anyway, i'm glad u turned back :)

To see a road in your dream, refers to your sense of direction and how you are pursuing your goals. If the road is winding, curvy, or bumpy in your dream, then it suggests that you will encounter many obstacles and setbacks toward achieving your goals. You may be met with unexpected difficulties. If the road is dark, then it reflects the controversial or more frightening choices which you have made or are making.�

If the road is smooth and bordered by trees or flowers, then it denotes a steady progress and steady climb up the social ladder. If the road is straight and narrow, then it means that your path to success is going as planned.

To see an unknown road in your dream, represents a path that has not been ventured. You are setting a new precedence for something.

To dream that a threatening creature is on a road, parallels a hostile situation/person you are encountering in your waking life. It is an obstacle that you need to overcome, no matter how intimidating the situation or person may appear.

Geez, shouldnt i be glad that i dreams of the straight road heading home? Humming "I'm going home, to the place where i belong..." not heaven, i don't wanna die just yet; age 8+, after i witness my grandchilDREN's weddding, n mayb SOME great grandchildren, p/s before my husband. :P

To dream that you lose something, indicates that you may really have misplaced something that you had not realized yet. It may also be a signal for you to clean out and reorganize your life. Perhaps you are overwhelmed and distracted with the hustle and bustle of day-to-day life.�Alternatively, losing something often coincides with a significant life change or waking issue.

On a symbolic note, losing things in your dream suggests lost opportunities, past relationships or forgotten aspects of yourself. Your personal associations to the thing you lose will clue you into the emotional meaning and interpretation of your dream.

I remember my troubled look after i threw the phone away...how can one be so silly to throw a possession which has bring much comfort for the past 6 yrs?? gee, the nokia 6200 is the first thing/phone i bought after my first salary working as a part time tutor after spm :) the first thing i woke up is to reached out to check if the bejeweled her is still safely within my reach; AMen, it is; she got a cuddle from her master :)

Another long dwindling post without photos (wifi bad,failed to upload) anyway, since i've interpreted my dreams, n somehow 80% of what i should do n whr to focus, the question is: do i hv the courage? Peace be with you all, n me :P

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

The Disadvantages of Being a Christian

For the past 5 years, i have been introduced, participated and believing in God; just as simple and naive as how a child would follow what is said to be good. There are times, many times when i wanted to accept Christ openly by saying the Lord's Acceptance Prayer; but not only until yesterday after Andrew gave his last sms, quote:

"FOOTPRINTS.. That's my poem for you... ... If I can, I would do what Jesus do.. But I believe he is more suitbale to carry by the beach.. I would be the one watching from the side.. Being there for you even if I am not the person carrying you..."

I was touched to tears, and have a deep sleep which led me to a dream which i will not disclose here.

The dreamt seemed to woke me up from my reality, ironic as it may sound or is it the post Inception effect; instead of feelig light cuz Jesus is carrying me, i felt burdened and my heart is gasping for air. Then i got the news that 2 friends who were so passionately active in Church decided to quit church. Be it i'm easily influenced or is it a wake up call; I have the urge to unchain the cross necklace as suddenly it felt SO SO HEAVY.

The resposibilities of being a christian,the commandments to abide, the promises,the words; all of those which i previously are proud of to share with others and serve as my life guide, seems 'not healthy' to my soul. It's evil, it shed and ripped my emotions and heart apart. Even the physical bruise and cut i got yesterday felt nothing compared the disappointment and emptiness im enduring.

Therefore, i googled this:


We talk about the joys of salvation. We talk about the blessings of discipleship. We talk about the advantages of being a Christian. There is another side to this, however, and to be absolutely honest, we must present it. There are limitations in salvation. There are demands in discipleship. There are disadvantages in being a Christian.

This may sound like a sacrilegious paradox, but it's not! Christ, himself, emphasized the requirements more than he did the benefits. He said devotion costs. "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up His cross and follow me" (Mark 8:34).

As Christians, we have to be better than average. As Christians, we must outlive the ordinary person. As Christians, we can't just continue doing what feels good. As Christians, we've moved beyond the natural realm. We're in the "spiritual" realm and thus more is expected of us. Jesus said, "From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked" (Luke 12:48b, NIV).

So, what are the disadvantages of being a Christian?


You see, it's "natural" to be selfish, but as Christians, we no longer have that option. Jesus said, "I seek not to please myself but him who sent me" (John 5:30).

Looking out for "Number One" may be human nature. Self-preservation may be based on instinct. Nevertheless, as Christians we must have higher ideals. John said, "Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers" (I John 3:16).

1. We can't be egotistical. Paul said, "Now we who are strong ought to bear the weaknesses of those without strength and not just please ourselves" (Rom. 15:1).

2. We can't be insensitive. John said, "But whoever has the world's goods, and beholds his brother in need and closes his heart against him, how does the love of God abide in him?" (I John 3:17).

3. We can't be unconcerned. Paul said, "Do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others" (Phil. 2:4).

4. We can't be greedy. Paul said, "Let no one seek his own good, but that of his neighbor" (I Cor. 10:24).

5. We can't be envious. Paul said, "Love is . . . not jealous . . ." (I Cor. 13:4).

6. We can't be self-righteous. John said, "If we say that we have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves, and the truth is not in us . . ." (I John 1:8).

7. We can't always be popular. Jesus said, "Woe to you when all men speak well of you, for in the same way their fathers used to treat the false prophets" (Luke 6:26).

So you see, as Christians we can't choose our occupations by income alone. We can't vote our pocketbooks. We can't feather our own nests at the expense of others. Selfishness is out. That's one of the disadvantages of being a Christian.


Now, it's "natural" to be defensive, but as Christians we no longer have that option. Jesus said, "Do not resist him who is evil; but whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn to him the other also" (Matt. 5:39).

Paul said, "See that no one repays another with evil for evil . . ." (I Thess
. 5:15).

Being reactionary is sinful. Some people are unbelievably touchy. They're like the rhinoceros. They say this belligerent animal can smell and hear quite well, but it can't see clearly. Therefore it takes no chances and immediately charges anything that comes near, be it human, animal or tank. Some people are like that.

The porcupine is another defensive animal. It has needle sharp quills and it uses them. It may be true that the porcupine is never kicked, but then again, it's never hugged either!

Yes, it's "natural" to be defensive. Lashing out and hitting back may be automatic responses. Protecting ourselves and blaming others may be normal behavior. Nevertheless, as Christians, we must be different:

1. We can't be negative. Paul said, "Whatever is true . . . whatever is of good repute . . . let your mind dwell on these things" (Phil. 4:8).

2. We can't be critical. "Malign no one . . . be uncontentious, gentle . . ." (Titus 3:2).

If you were given a dollar for every kind word, and charged a dollar for every critical word, would you be rich or poor? Think about it!

3. We can't gossip. "Do not speak against one another . . ." (James 4:11).

4. We can't be judgmental. "Do not judge lest you be judged" (Matt. 7:1).

None of us are qualified to judge. Only God knows all the circumstances.

5. We can't hate. "But I say to you, love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you" (Matt. 5:44).

6. We can't retaliate. "Let all be harmonious, sympathetic, brotherly, kindhearted, and humble in spirit" (I Peter 3:8-9).

7. We can't get even. "Never pay back evil for evil to anyone" (Rom. 12:17).

You've heard, "Don't get mad, get even!" Well that's impossible and totally unproductive. An eye for an eye doesn't restore sight. It simply blinds two men. Revenge never makes things better. It always makes things worse.

We can't justify our actions by saying, "Well, he had it coming." We must operate by the principle of mercy.

A native accompanied a missionary on a trip, but he totally refused to accept the Gospel. On the way, they had car trouble and tried frantically to wave down a passing truck, but to no avail. Finally, the missionary got the car started, and they had not gone far when they came upon the stalled truck with the two men who had failed to help them. The native was ecstatic, "Now, we can pay those fellows back. They passed us up and we'll pass them up." "Oh, no," the missionary said. "We must stop and help them."

After they had given aid and were on their way again, the native said to the missionary, "Sir, I begin to understand. Your Gospel is about a Christ who came to help not just his friends, but his enemies."

Yes, forgiveness is required. Defensiveness is out. That's another disadvantage of being a Christian.


It's "natural" to be mediocre; but as Christians we no longer have that option. Paul said, "Be devoted . . . not lagging behind in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord" (Rom. 12:10-11).

John said, "I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; . . . I will (spew) you out of My mouth" (Rev. 3:15, 16).

Being only fair or "so-so" is sinful. Once, some of Teddy Roosevelt's supporters called him a great, extra-ordinary man. He objected, "Oh, no! I'm not a great extra-ordinary man. I'm just a plain, ordinary man, highly motivated."

Yes, it's natural to be mediocre. Inertia is a principle of the physical world. Even water runs downhill. Laziness is a constant temptation of mankind. Nevertheless, as Christians we must overcome these tendencies.

1. We can't be complacent. "Whoever does not carry his own cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple" (Luke 14:27).

2. We can't be half-hearted. "No servant can serve two masters; . . . he will hate the one, and love the other . . ." (Luke 16:13).

3. We can't be apathetic. Paul said, "Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men" (Col. 3:23).

We can't just look the other way.

4. We can't be uninvolved. Paul said, "For we are God's fellow workers . . ." (I Cor. 3:9).
5. We can't, just go along. Paul said, "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind . . ." (Rom. 12:2).

6. We can't be careless. John said, "The one who says, `I have come to know Him,' and does not keep His commandments, is a liar . . ." (I John 2:4).

7. We can't be unethical. John said, "Anyone who . . . does not abide in the teaching of Christ, does not have God" (II John 9).

So, you see, as Christians, we can't be clock watchers. We can't give the least effort for the most returns. The needs are great. Excellence is in. Mediocrity is out. That's another disadvantage of being a Christian.

Yes, indeed, being a Christian can really put a cramp in your style. Jesus said, "But I say to you . . . love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If you just love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. But love your enemies, and do good . . . and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High; for He Himself is kind to ungrateful and evil men. Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful. And do not judge and you will not be judged; and do not condemn, and you will not be condemned; pardon, and you will be pardoned" (Luke 6:27-37).

We constantly emphasize the blessings of salivation and the rewards of discipleship; but in fact, Jesus actually emphasized the opposite. He never promised the proverbial "Rose Garden." Instead, he warned of hardships and obligations. He was honest about the disadvantages of being a Christian. Listen: "If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you." "They will put you out of the synagogue; in fact, a time is coming when anyone who kills you will think he is offering a service to God. I have told you this, so that when the time comes you will remember that I warned you . . ." (John 15:19, and 16:2,4).

There is no "easy believism." Jesus said, "Not everyone who says to me, `Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven" (Matt. 7:21).

God expects great things of us. We have enormous responsibilities. We are here for a purpose. Paul said, "Do you not know that . . . you are not your own? . . . therefore glorify God . . ." (I Cor. 6:19-20).

A Japanese missionary was going home one night when he saw a would-be-suicide climb up on a bridge and jump into the river. The missionary dived in, dragged him out, took him home, nursed him back to health, fed him and found him a job.

Then, he said, "You can stay here or you can live elsewhere; but remember this, from now on your life no longer belongs to you. I saved it, so it belongs to me. Therefore, you must report to me regularly on what you've been doing with `my life.' " Surprisingly, the man made good. He became a successful professional. Years later, he finally got up the courage to ask his benefactor a question. "I know you saved me from death and helped me tremendously; but where did you get the notion that my life no longer belongs to me?" "That's not a notion," the Japanese missionary replied. "That's the truth. In fact, my life doesn't really belong to me. It was given to me by God and I must stand before him and tell him what I've done with it!" Paul said, "He died for all, that they who live should no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf" (II Cor. 5:15).

So, what are you doing with the life God has given you? Are you using all of your time, talents, energy and opportunities in His service?
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

This entry is dedicated to the man i hurt and to myself:

Relationship Advice: 10 Ways to Survive a Break Up
Breaking up is always painful. Here are some suggestions to help you get through it.

Enlarge ImageBreak ups are never easy. You are a bundle of jealous, hurt, angry, resentful emotions. Your mood can swing from depression to bitter anger. The only thing you seem to think about is what went wrong, can I get him/her back or I’ll show him/her. The main theme in your life is ‘How can I feel better right NOW?’ Here are some suggestions that I hope will help.

1.Friends and Family
. I know this may seem obvious but lean on your friends and family. Spend time doing things together, not just talking and thinking about the break up. If this isn’t enough, you may consider a support group or counseling.

2.Resist the urge to beg. You want them back but not at any price. At the time it may seem the right thing to do but think about it. In the long run they will lose respect for you. This doesn’t mean don’t try to work things out. If there is a chance you can work things out, go for it. However, if your partner has made it clear that in their eyes, the relationship is over, begging will not help and may hurt the situation.

3.Make a change in your life. Find a new way to spend your time. Take a class, join a gym, adopt a pet, or volunteer. Do anything that will make you feel good about yourself. Your ego is probably feeling bruised right now. Find a way to counteract that.

4.Understand your mistakes but also realize that you are not a failure. Don’t beat yourself up. If you made mistakes, then yes, learn from them but dwelling on what might have been won’t help. It takes two to make a relationship, it also takes two to end one. You weren’t the only one who made mistakes. It may not seem useful to you now, but a lot of times the things you learned from this experience will make your next relationship stronger, as long as you make the necessary changes.

5.Start Dating. You won’t feel like it at first, but don’t stay away from other people for an extended period of time. Going out with other people can help the healing process and boast your ego.

6.Don’t fall prey to others. There will be people trying to sell you this or that, guaranteed to win back your partner. Don’t let people take advantage of you while you are vulnerable. If you do buy something, understand that while there is a chance it could help, there is also a chance that it won’t.

7.Take up a hobby. Learn something new. There is probably something you’ve always wanted to try but never had the time. You have the time, do it.

8.Don’t rush into another relationship. While starting to date can help you feel better, it’s not a good idea to rush right into another relationship. Take time to heal before making any commitments or someone will probably end up getting hurt.

9.Avoid dwelling on it. I know it’s impossible not to think about it, but, if you find yourself doing so for an extended period of time, find a way to take your mind off of it. Call a friend; go to the gym, whatever comes to mind. If nothing seems to work, try this: Make a list of reasons why you are better off now. This could include I have time to do the things I want to do. I can date anyone I want to. I can find a partner who will appreciate me the way I am and stop wasting time on a doomed relationship. Think about the things they did that drove you crazy, because there are some. Don’t look back with rose colored glasses and only remember the good things. Don’t have the idea in your head that if only we were back together I would be happy. Wrong. Wouldn’t they have a lot to answer for if you did get back together? Leaving you was probably the biggest mistake they will ever make. Let them dwell on it, you move on!

10.Build your ego. I’ve touched on this already but it is very important. Find ways to feel better about yourself. This could be anything from getting a haircut to buying some new clothes. You could take a class on self improvement. If nothing else, you should do this: Make a list of things that make you a great person. Don’t sit there and tell me you can’t think of anything. I don’t buy it. Try again. Are you kind? Patient? Intelligent? Cook like a pro? Can fix anything? There are things that make you great. WRITE them down and whenever you feel low, read your list and add to it. You are you and you are great so don’t let anyone ever make you feel that you aren’t.

This is going to be a tough phase for me, a hardship which i thought God would never let me undergo again. But He's the Almighty, He knows we've the capability to stand up after this fall; and we will learn and mature from this. I am grateful and appreciative of the beautiful memories shared. Thank God there's no cursing or blaming ending but peace and understanding; God bless you Darling (and this will be response to your 'this will be the last time i call u Darling, take care) i will miss you terribly for this few days, and i hope time will heal our wounds asap. Well, kep in touch, my brother-in-christ~! =)

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Q & A session with Reverend 江

Here are some questions we asked Reverend Jiang last Sunday:

1. How to know if he's the one:
Answer: Chemistry! If one part keeps one emitting the electric, but the other one didn't plug onto to switch, in this case, either no feel or wrong timing, then it's not God's will. For God will give both the magnifying electrical shot if it's a meant-to-be relationship. :)

Reflection: Aha, that answers my question. Of cuz, being in a relationship means more than just the electrical feel. That explains why when we've a crush on someone but he's not; and when he is, we're not. Timing plays such vital role here :) Once both party switches on the switch, then there comes commitment, trust and tolerance. Hm..something which i am still learning and learning :)

2. How to share gospel, especially to non-believers like family and friends?

Answer: Have you portray your christ-like image? Did you help your mom with the dishes? Or is laziness and disobedience outshines your devotion to Christ. Think about it, once you 'turn over a new leaf' and portray the image of a Christian lady, then there's no need to purposely force/share the gospel; for others will see the positive changes in you and come to you. They will be drawn to God and not driven.

Reflection: Gohmenazai dada n mom. I've not been such a good obedient daughter afterall; guess i should be more pro-active and take the iniatiative to do the housework, willingly and .. sometimes, it still daunts me to tell others i'm a christian, i've not baptist nor have i officially accepted christ. In my heart, i do believe in God, Jesus and the holy spirit. But do i portray such good image? not only as a christian, but even as a teacher to be. hm.. same answer, i'm still learning, growing up as the days pass :)

3: If God so loved the world, why does He give such pain and hardship to His people?

Answer: For them to appreciate life more and grow wiser from the lesson.

Reflection: Do i love hardship? NO! i don't, given a choice, would you want to be sick or met with an accident just because you'll be careful on the road? Guess some people just need to learn the hard way. Yes, i agree to a certain extend that if we encounter hardship, we should take it the positive way, see the light in the outcome; there got to be two sides of the coin. For example, i didn't get the internship to Taiwan last holidays, but i get to attend the Life Camp. I strongly believe that 3D2Ns Life Game taught me more than 2-3 months internship.

Daily Reflection:
Early at dinner today, my friend revealed that some of my classmates will add 'Silverin Yiing likes this' at their Facebook comments. Reason? For I'm positive, even their complaints i'll try to give encouragements and motivation. She asked if i'm angry for they say so. Angry over such compliments? No way! :) i admit i am HAPPY (Genuinely happy)when i'm positive. I believe students will enjoy the class if the teacher smiles and gives words of encouragement instead of pulling a long face and give boring lecture. However, those who really know me, will know i;ve my emotional sides too. *wink wink*

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Wedding Toast

oh, my fingers don't wanna stop typing just yet. Since when did the love for blogging reborn? Anyway, there's something that keeps on probing in my mind: Why did Mr Big leave Carrie for Natashia? Carrie is gorgeous, fabulous, and a journalist! but Natashia is 26, young talented and Mr Big feels she's the one. But can Mr Big forget Carrie? I know Carrie still lingers on her past, how can she not? Oh...I shall write my second Special Occasion Speech, entitled "Farewell, my love"

So cliche~ How come i never thought of the idea of farewell to a bf? I've once written a farewell love letter to my ex. (Ps, Andrew, you are not reading this, if you are, just bear in mind it's for coursework purposes. :P) should i? Will the past memories came back haunting me?

Never try never know. Here comes the 10 fingers, doing their magic, i hope.



Hey, hi, i mean, hello

Can't, i can't. it's a public speaking. the target group is a group of audience!! not just one person, D person who once left a scar on your heart. Thank God it is beautifully patched up now :) Nah, I've no ilham nor desire to revisit the past. Special Occasion, hm..since when breaking up is a special occasion worth celebrate? In a way, it is. Without breakup, we would not meet the right one, who has been there patiently waiting for us. How glad am I to be born a lady. Lolx Yiing, we are in the new millineum, and you are still there thinking guys should make the first move? You bet I am way that traditional! :P

Eliminate 2, skip to 3 - wedding toast. I bet half of my classmates will be doing this topic. Why not? since it is such a joyous occasion! Hm, i wonder why my sis didn't invite me to do her wedding toast? mayb it's not our Chinese culture.

Wine glass and spoon, ready your position, here we go, 3, 2, 1

Ladies and gentleman, may i have your attention.
Ahem. thank you.

We are all gathered here today to celebrate the joyous occasion of my beloved sister, Chin Ling and her handsome husband, Yew Kim. first Yam Seng, to my new family member! yam Senggggggggggg...

I remembered the first time my sister mentioned bout his existance, it's on a quiet night when i thought sis is asleep as she is the one who usually switches off the light. Out of no where, she popped out this question "Do you ever receive roses? from a guy?"

I was in form 2 that time, and she, Lower Six. Shocked and proudly, i replied 'Yes, the fake paper rose in our cupboard over there. Why?'

'Oh, yeah, but real ones?'

'Erm, ... no, yet.'

'What will you do if you receive a bouquet of roses from a guy?'

'Who is he sis? someone who has a crush on you? what's his name? handsome? your classmate?"

I started to bombared questions to sis, I am so happy for her. for that guy is her first bf, the only one, and old wine tastes better, they got married today, after 9 years of courtship. No breakups, Amen to that, yes to some disagreements.

Sis thought me that no relationships are smooth sailing. There are times when we women have to voice out our opinions. And buying that new house, the house some of you went to this morning, how is it? Lovely? I exceptionally love it! Though it's not some big mansion, but it's from their own money. At the age of 28, both sister and my brother-in-law have saved enough for the downpayment and for this marriage. This is just one part which i admire about my sister and brother-in-law.

From this, I learnt, and wish all who are singles or getting married soon, having goals is important, be it in your life or relationship. Before the food gets cold, I shall end this wedding toast with another 2 yam sengs. Let's thank both side's parents for their marvellous and respected brought up teachings for this married couple. Yam SengGGGGGGGGGGGGGggggggggggggg

Lastly, with a joyous cheer, let's wish this newly weds a life overflowed with true love, devotion and may you two give Lau's family a future generation soon! YAm Sengggggggggggggggggggggg~

Thank you! "

wAh, wait till my sister see this. She's a TESL teacher too, currently transferred out to SMK Bako. she's always been my mentor, see, i took up TESL too, so you can see how much i wanna follow her footsteps. Like our Dr Nordin said, the eldest are most organized and responsible ones. Being the youngest, does it mean, it's really a God given privilege to be manja? Haha..

Peace be with you all =)

P/s we can send draft to Pn Nurliza, right? :)

Draft for Special Occasion Public Speaking 1

Yes, it's me writing again after the previous blog sent 5 seconds ago. This time i shall be more focus: What topic for my special occasion Public Speaking?

I've thought of a few:
1. Graduation!
2. Farewell.
3. Wedding Toast!

Graduation! yes, from this, you can hv an idea of how much i yearn to finish my studies and go home. Home? Will i be that lucky to be posted back home? I've many friends who wished to be posted away from home. Since God is so good, can you please fulfill our little wishes? Random thought of my graduaton speech:

"Finally, finally it's the BiG Day! The day I, and most of us, yearn for for the past 6 years. Congratulations to all my 45 coursemates and me myself, for succeeding in our 6 years educational studies. Are you all ready for the teaching life in reality? Mind you, there will be no more micro teaching but real life teaching! No more friendly classmates faking as students but real naughty and noisy bunch of adorable students! No more countless edited lesson plans but simple and straight to the principal's office's BOOK. Aha, and not more observation by our lecturers but our students' performance will reflect our teachings. (Have I reached 3 minutes? No?)

Today, i am proud to stand here, receiving this 'pelajar cemerlang' award (angan-angan, ignore me:P). Thanks to IPG KTI and UPM, thanks to all my beloved lecturers, namely Miss Ratha, the most popular and well-respected lecturer, Puan Saleena, though you have left us, but you are one of my role-model and always will be, Miss Loh, the KJ who taught me how to walk and eat and speak like a gentle lady, our new KJ, Puan Nurliza, who gave me a very good first impression as you didn't scold me for being absent for one week, Miss Prema, who is so dedicated and helpful, Miss Nenny, bubbly and easy-going and many more. If time allows, I would like to thank my childhood, primary and secondary teachers who have made a good impact on my life as a teacher. (Time keeper, how much time have i left?)

My fellow friends, there are many teachers in my life whom have really touched my life. I am sure there are countless if not one or two teachers who, too, have leave memorable memories in yours. Let us continue to pray for these teachers who have bring light to the world. Without you, who are we? Without your guidance, will this batch of B.Ed TESL cohort 4 developed into such teacher-like teachers? Ha, take that as positive remark my dear friends. You have changed, we all, have totally changed, from wearing hot pants out shopping to decent long pants and well-covered shoes. That's a joke. Come'on, we are human beings. And for that, i will end my speech with a 'Let's Celebrate!' See you guys at the Euphoria for our graduation party! Yes, Puan Nurliza and readers, you are invited too! 10pm sharp, dress as you like, sway the body as you wish, unleash the 6 yrs entrapment to your max, for tonight's photo will NOT be uploaded to Facebook~! With that, thank you, each and everyone of you, for making my 6 years journey colourful and memorable~ "

Gee, I've written out my speech!! What do you think? Delete the last part? But it's totally what's on my mind when my fingers typed it out..HAHA! One task down, another occasion to go...Farewell or birthday? Hey, this falls under farewell or graduation?Suddenly it seems like..wadever~ Another episode of S&C then i'll think bout it. Peace!

self conflict haha!

yay, Captivate JB called. Yes, i am bored to the extend that i need to find part time job. since money is never enough and i felt horrible eating, sleeping and watching movie, i dialed D number. is it real that alot of ppl wn this kind of 'relaxing' days? hm...

Yiing wake up! u shud b studyin! exam is jz 2 weeks later.
exam? oh, exam.
For God's sake, your result dropped last sem due to part time working!
nah, it's cuz im lazy n i never reli like BM subjs.
You are a teacher-to-be in less than a year, how can you be lazy?
Why can't I? Teacher is jz normal occupation.
Aha, coming from you who hv passion for teaching?
Yes, i do love teaching. but argh...one year, why is this one year so long?

Eeek..self-questioning-and-answering. This is the effect of staying too long in the room.Hm, calm down, take a deep breath. Reflect.

Why am I here?
Final year, study, graduate on time.

Why do I want to be here?
Cuz teaching will be my profession, in order word, for survival.

Can you cope with your studies if you work?
I hope so, in fact, i manage my time better when i work. cuz i know i hv to study, n working allows me to meet new friends n get out of these 4 walls.

What about church? You willing to give up sunday mass for RM100?
I will attend church, work starts at 12 noon. Yes, i might miss the fellowship..hm..

Do you really need the money?
No. i'm jz bored of staying in.

You can revise!
But no one is..lame excuses i know.

Ahem, pardon my angel-devil thoughts. Just feel like typing out what's on my mind. then when i look back one day when im bored or sad, i might laugh over it. that time, i might hv bigger problems and get sick of working, n i'll look back and ponder, why the **** do i wan to work when i get to REST? (consequences of overdosage of Sex and the city)

Tat'll be another chapter of life. :)

Monday, July 12, 2010

i miss home ....

i miss home....
Just 2 weeks back in IPG Kampus Temenggong Ibrahim, Johor Bahru, i've started to miss home...honestly, i can't wait for this final year to finish. 6 years!! that's very long, i'm not doing medicine or architect.

i realized that's just emotional rush. 6 years is not that long. how much have i achieved? Have I grown up into a more matured lady? hm..i pleated my hair 5 years ago, this morning i still play with it. :P guess the kiddy-ness in me is still thr.

back to school is a good feeling. i've settled down with my new roommate, cynthia. she's from kuching too. very funny, all of us have changed roommates. guess it's all in His plans.

wanna share one testimony here: Praise the Lord~ our ketua jabatan actually accepted our letter of absence of 1 week (Maktab is extremely particular about absenties since the new pengarah took over) without much questioning. and the best part is that she told KO to put present for our one week attendace~!! This entry is not to encourage others or allow myself to skip more classes, but that...all glory to Him =)

I miss home..
thought updating my blog or fb or indulge myself in movies will bring the homesickness away, but it remains..sobx..hari raya, faster approach~

but there are times when i'm afraid the time will fly very fast, because that means we're near to posting~ posting!! this is the scary part about teaching, mayb not all that scary. but the thought of leaving home, again, for God knows how many years, and where this time, can bring tears to my eyes...i can't imagine myself being posted to somewhere deep and unfamiliar like the jungles of pahang or the mountains of sabah...yes, i love nature, going for a 5 days vacation is fun, but 5 years?! please take my fear away...i salute my seniors for taking their responsibilities with such courage =) mayb this final year is the year for me to equip myself to face the reality of working life..

i miss home..

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Happy moments at Level Up Fitness Centre

Another week has passed. Thanks to Kenny Sia's Level Up, I had had a great time working out. Though I didnt see any visible weight loss, I felt healthy, and happy. Indeed, doing different sports are far more interesting than the mundane ones, like jogging every day. haha..Back up: I havn't jog for ages, cuz it's just so lonely to do things alone. Tsk tsk...

So far, we've attended Busman's dance aerobic, very funny! Especially the indian movements! Kate's Fitness ball, man, this is super tiring~ Amazed by how much one can do with just one ball..imagine, hvin two! Bluek~ Lyn's Salsa Class is one which we can wear high heels to class. Belly Dance~ Oh my, I like this~! Sway, sway sway~! Haven't try their Poco-Poco Dance, Body combat etc.. if i got posted to kuching next year, i will surely sign up for long term membership! It's just so fun~!

Or maybe cuz they're new things. I realized i've a habit of loving new things, cuz mayb their fresh. Wakaka. But hey, i do stil like mountain climbing, karaoke, badminton and bowling...friends, anyone free for these activities for the coming 2 weeks?

Monday, June 7, 2010

Life Game 2010 Sibu

Happiness doubled; troubles divided.

We got married at the age of 27, had our first born Grace at 44 and little Irene at 49. Before marriage, I was a businesswoman selling food. Frankly speaking, I earned a lot of money but I was so busy and neglected my health and basic necessities in life; I aged quick thus. Education can improve one's life in terms of job prospects and prestige.

While cutting queue (I have high prestige points so I can 'overtake' the 'lower class society'), XW came and asked 'Why don't we get married?' For Love? Not really. To save cost of living. Partially. The real reason I nodded my head out of joy is simply because I've knew this church member for a 2 years, and he's a good man; had a solid job as Banking Sales Manager, owns a car and yes, he had had insurance. A man who prioritize health and knew the importance of insurance earns 'plus points' easily! *wink wink*

I gave discount to those who were in need of food, but how many mouths can one person feed?

I decided working and earning so much is useless because no one will share the joy with me. Who should I inherit my wealth to? I stopped my business for 15 years, as this job is risky and husband don't want me to die earlier than him. I remembered him hurrying off to buy our wedding ring while I queued up at the registrar. Out of the hundreds, a handful of citizens realized the beauty and importance of getting married and settle down instead of chasing after education, money and more prestige; or for the poor and sick, pursuing for survival.

I witnessed other married couples and later we went to take our wedding photo. The news reporter came and asked how did my husband propose to me. I decided to keep that answer a secret; somethings are just not meant to be shared. *wink wink* I put on the veil and the photographer snapped our cheerful smile. Marriage before God is not something to fool about, commitments, trust and faith begin to play its role in helping us to plan our future ahead, as a couple.

Gracefully Gracious. May you Shine for the Lord always~

Time flies. We heard news of neighbors dying; our newly appointed Free City Mayor was murdered in a robbery, leaving his beloved wife behind. That is when we decided to have children and inherit our property for them so they would start off their life with riches. Yes, MONEY IS IMPORTANT. Without money, we can't get education; without education, we can barely get a good job. Without a good job, we will die of hunger or cold. And, without money and prestige, it is hard to get a wife/husband. Ps, finding job is tough. Amen I am a future teacher and the secured path is laid. I remembered the tough moments and humiliation I received when I failed for the insurance interview. Thankfully, my husband was with me through the ups and downs; as I was with him at the hospital when he diced 'health disease' and we went for medical checkups for pregnancy hope. Luckily both of us bought insurance, therefore our medical expanses are covered. Those who have financial difficulties would have to suffer from illness and hunger.

'I was blind, but now I see." John 9:25

People were dying. I feared I would die earlier than my husband and Grace was still learning how to crawl. I counted my personal savings, 'Yes, these savings would be enough for him and the kids to survive to the end of his of life.' He feared of me dying earlier too, thus asked 'Why not we make another baby?" I was moved. He decided to make the WILL with me so after delivering Irene, we went to the court to make the couple will for our little angels. The moment we signed the will, I felt relieved; relieved because I had done the best I could for my children.

For your information, I was still living on our savings and his salary. We were quite free while others were buzzing up and down in their life. I wondered what is LIFE all about? Is it just to fulfill our stomach with food, and have better house to stay and branded cars to drive and expensive clothes to wear? Yes and no. Living a luxurious life does earn you the prestige points, people look high upon you and you get to have certain privileges while others can't. Through our life, we did search for God and our church. But we failed.

Tsunami came. Some were swept off by the current. Earthquake occurred. Some died; the stock market dropped drastically; people were still seen exchanging goods and making deals. 'Prolonged Life' policy emerged; battles among neighbors. Is the world coming to an end...Are you READY?

Sorry I have to end my story here.

GOOD NEWS!! To those who are interested to experienced your LIFE GAME, contact Ms.Ling Na at 016-8931929 or 010-9600329. Yvonne and I had found our purpose in life and are now experiencing our second life, how about you?

It's hard to stay straight in this slippery world. Stay close to ME. -GOD.
"Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think." The Bible - Romans 12:2 (NLT)

God Bless you all~
Warmest regards,